Clinic days are difficult.

Those are the days that I am reminded yet again of how 'not well' I am. Today's clinic showed that my blood pressure, weight and creatinine have increased. At twenty-five percent usage, this kidney is just not doing its job adequately,

My two-year old son has a puzzle that he puts together and dismantles on a nearly daily basis. In between clinic visits, even though I am still keenly aware of my lacking health, I have been intentionally taking steps to 'do normal' again: a hair cut, going grocery shopping, a few coffee dates with friends.

And then I go to clinic and I am taken apart once more.